So yes.. this year I had decided to try adulting like most people do, you can read the whole entry here if you wish to know what I’m talking about.
I really like challenging myself to step outside of my comfort zone. Well, that’s if we can actually call uncertainty and chaos a comfort zone at all.
And then, like a reminder that I was doing was so against my authentic self, Corona Virus striked in the world to actually remind me that is impossible under these circumstances where I thrive when most people can’t even survive. And in my case I feel lack of routinary life helps me enjoy life to the extent most people can’t even imagine. Unfortunately is not something I do deliberatedly…. it just comes out of me naturally or thanks to my ADHD.
However let’s have a look at what I’ve managed so far this year;
Control over my time management and organizational skills
Epic fail… I made like 20 different calendars, set my mobile phone with all the reminders with all the times allocated to do all the things I wanted to do in that time with my work, with my posts, with my kids, etc. But… somehow I seem to have wasted more time planning it than actually folllowing any of it. As if it had killed all my productivity and willingness to do anything at all.
2. Control over my body.
I promised myself I would stick to this one. So far I’ve only managed to stick to post it once a week…. if you click on the entries and pay close attention probably not even two posts are identical in structure and descriptions or even photo order…. I guess I’m just not born to be methodical.
3. Control over my procrastinating tendencies.
I nailed it in January, falling back on it on March, however I’ve realized despite the quarantine time I keep procrastinating cleaning the oven and other activities which I know I should be tackling right now but can’t be bothered.
4. Control over my relationships and social life.
This one I’m keeping… as a single mother of two I have too much on my plate to actually sit around and have my time wasted by anyone who is not helping me thrive in business, supporting my work, purchasing my work or even sharing it or liking it. I do a lot of things but I don’t trade my time for low effort attention. I say guys because usually women don’t go hitting on me via facebook trying to waste my time saying «hi» or waving at me. And they can only do it on facebook because they seem to confuse facebook with dating apps I’m not in at the moment because I’m really no currently available.
5. Control over my paperwork and any of my belongings.
I did sort all my paperwork prior to March… hip hip hooray. I hope to finish the rest during the remainder of the quarantine period (till the 12th of April)
I did my best and my part of the work in getting over a situation that was causing me a dilema when it comes to feelings that seem alien to my current self but not so much to my old teenage self!
Still focusing on goals though!! ;D
And just today I’ve reached the one with the photo below and got round to 600 followers on 500px.
I may try this of sticking to routines once all this Coronavid settles down. Or who knows…if I feel motivated enough. But this situation has just proved me that it’s stupid as the world is changing constantly. And finding routines and stability is just more like a mere illusion.
For the moment I will stay focused on my goals in my own unpredictable patterns.
I guess some are blessed with the ability to love security and stability and others are just more genetically wired to work in bursts of productivity and inspiration.