Loving the lyrics and mood of this song.

It’s the perfect original soundtrack for my latest wild high standard in life in order to avoid distractions and stay on track with my goals.

Basically, I’m closing all doors and all easy roads leading to me.

I’m making a bold move and blocking and deleting literally anyone who once had their chance and either lost it, expired it, played themselves wrong out of it or let me down in one way or another.

Well, I’m not gonna lie about it, truth is that I’ve been practicing this for quite a while with the ones that came along last year. These days the moment something feels slightly off… I’ve blocked them. But as of January 2023 I’ve chosen to do so mercilessly as well with old connections from the past you really expect nothing on but occasionally came back from the dead.

I usually don’t need to block people in order to move on. I often choose to let them think they’re ignoring me or taking me for granted when in reality I’m just letting them lose me in silence and moving on. And I often have the approach that whatever they think about it is their business.

However experience has shown me that 99,9% of these men always come back from the dead seeking attention and the fact they think they still have a chance kind of offends me. I don’t like ignoring people or leaving messages on read. Setting boundaries they may not respect is time consuming. So what other option was left??

Yeps, you’ve guessed it! Blocking them!

Not because I hate them, not because they hurt me, not because I expect anything out of them they’re not providing. In fact, I wish them all the best, but some had a chance to have it and they couldn’t see it! And I’m here no longer for those who think they can risk losing it. :P.

But decision is also made mostly so all I have on Whatsapp these days are family, current clients and reliable friends I can actually count on to make real plans, go out and have fun with. Some old contacts may still be there because I’ve already set the boundary and as long as they’re respecting it, they can stay.

I’m also confident that anyone who truly liked me, loved me or wanted me wouldn’t have put themselves in a position to lose me. But if they did unintentionally, used to women who like toxic traits of being ignored and stuff. It’s gonna be tough for them and they’re gonna have to go the extra mile and beyond to prove they’re worth a second chance.

I am simply not accessible for any kind of mediocre attention, breadcrumbing or mind games these days.

If it looks like I am, beware, I teach other women how to easily recognize players and time suckers. So if it seems like I’m not respecting myself, acting clingy, and stuff like that, chances are that I’m using you to test my theories to deliver better dating advice.

I’m also dead curious to see how holding myself to this latest high standard will impact my overall energy, my other goals in life and my current challenge ;D.

12/03/23 update:

Ok, so by now I have blocked all men I knew were likely to return when I least expected it. Even latest experiment.

Since then I have had some shocking revealing reactions to this bold move.

The person I wanted to get to know the most in my life (but expected the least from) is actually the one that showed the biggest effort in trying to figure out why on earth did I block him. From calling me to chasing me in real life until we had a face to face uncomfortable conversation about it. Unsure if he lost me back in the day because he was a player, insecure about my interest for him or had whatever going on and by the time he thought he could come back I had gone completely out of his reach for decades. Since my return he’s been trying slowly but surely earn a spot back in my life. I wanted to keep him as friend but he didn’t meet my standards for that so I blocked him too. But him being willing to talk it out has made me see him in a different light. And me being confident enough to communicate my standards to him not being afraid of losing him in my life has also made him see the real me, and I think he really likes this new upgraded version of me he’s been missing for a looooong time. Such a pity there is a major standard he’s not meeting and I will not wait around for him to figure how to meet it either. If it’s meant to be, it will be, until then, I make the rules of the game, and that means he only gets to see me when destiny wants us to. But I’m not waiting around for anyone who can’t give me all I want and need straight from day 1. They’re either all in or I want them the hell out of my life.

Besides, following my gut on this has worked wonders. And as suspected, new things have come unexpectedly, and bang on time to completely and partially restore my faith on my challenge. ;D

Think you can play me, think you can break me,

But baby I don’t have the time.

‘Cause once you hurt me or try to fool me

I just erase you out my life.

No, I can’t love you anymore

I’m closing all my doors with you

Cause I can’t go back like before

I’m stronger than you know. It’s true.

Now baby,

I’m so done

You got me wrong

Thought I wasn’t strong enough without you

But I’m so done

I’m moving on

I’m gonna be stronger now without you

Babe, I’m so done.